I used to carry my camera everywhere.
I used to spend hours every day in the darkroom, not realizing hours had passed.
I used to spend hundreds of dollars on photo paper and film every month.
Then I started law school at the same time my SLR stopped working. I tried to find creative ways to use it, but eventually it began to collect dust in my closet.
I bought a digital camera. A nice one with lots of features, but it wasn’t the same. I took it with me everywhere, but it all came down to snapshots and not creativity.
I still have that camera (well, the replacement for it after it met it’s untimely death due to rain. I should add: Canon has EXCELLENT customer service and for $100 shipped me a refurbished upgrade in exchange for the deceased body of my original camera) and still take hundreds of snapshots a month. Which I then overshare on facebook & flickr.
But something still was missing. Then my digital started getting wonky (shutter sticks so have to manual open, leading to scratches/smudges on lens). And I considered repairing my SLR.
But I said “F IT!” I decided I would save up for a digital SLR. Well, that idea lasted all of a few hours . . .
Next thing I know, I’m walking out of Best Buy with a new Nikon D3000 Digital SLR! The love child of my two disabled cameras and a great starter digital SLR.
This week has been spent familiarizing myself with my new lover and remembering all over again how photography works. And it has been exhilirating.
I need to give myself more credit as to my ability and my creativity. I have my own aesthetic and need to explore it more. I need to not be afraid to take risks and share my results. I need to not over-edit myself.
As I continue on this path of self re-discovery, I will share my results and I will share my ideas. I won’t be afraid to take chances and I won’t be afraid of criticism.
Here goes nothing . . .